When Juliet and I arrived in this world, we found ourselves in a small park nearby. Neither of us had gone back there since then, but we decided to go there today. It was the same place, but it seemed totally different. The leaves that had once been so many colors had long since fallen. Now the trees are bare and lifeless. The last few days had been pretty warm, but now the cold is setting in for good, marking the coming of winter.
The weather isn’t all that’s changed. Neither of us would say it, but I could tell we were both thinking it – the first time we walked down that path, we were completely different people than we are now. We stopped to rest on a bench. It was the same bench where, months ago, I had vowed to be there for Juliet no matter what.
Juliet still wants me to go back with her. Not to the future together that we both once longed for, but to a new future shaped by our hands. She believes that our relationship will never be the same, that we have simply been through too much. The words stung, but I know I deserved them. The irony of this whole thing doesn’t escape me.
I didn’t want to go back because I feared my own weakness. But I failed to see Juliet’s strength. She is important to me, and she wants me to remain by her side. I know it’s late, but I’ve decided to fulfill my vow and be there for her – for real this time. Because I believe in her. If she wants to change our fate, then I have to be there to help her, even if only as a friend.
I don’t know if you guys can really do what you say you can, but you seem like good people, and Juliet trusts you. I’m hardly in a place to say this after all the shit I put you through, but I want to take you guys up on your offer. Just tell me what I have to do.
December 7, 2012 Friday at 1:30 am